Another rotation

 Another rotation around the sun. This past year has been hellish, but in the end better. 

This year's recap word is, THERAPY!!! I've learned so much about me and the why's behind who I am. Yes, it's infuriating, but I think it's been necessary. That's what made me okay with less friends this year. I don't want half assed friends, others that with one mistake totally flip on you. When I look back at them, I feel bad for them, to be honest. The inability of not understanding, not having empathy. Others not being able to work and talk through issues. Not everyone can manage that same things you can. All in all, that's been a blessing because it's made me see friends that are there for me even more. I've been more open with things that I've experienced and where I'm at in life; no longer scared to speak up. It's been liberating and so surprising to experience the understanding and support from them. 

I feel happier, more stable. 

I know I was raised to be a thinker, to break down points of view and find the proof behind them. We're supposed to do that with even our own beliefs, it's encouraged. Don't be a follower of men. That will always be the correct path to truth. The strong ones don't get scared to hear that, they help, not run away. I'm happy to have mentally, spiritually strong friends. I've barfed out everything to them, and they've cried with me, shared stories with me, built me up, and not made me feel like an outsider. They see the holes as well, they feel upset as well. 

I'm damaged, but it's okay. I didn't do this to myself, it was done to me. That is the biggest truth I need to remember. There's no room for guilt and shame when heeling. That's what others put on you. 

Let's see what this year brings. For sure travel.