The Huntington Library
I guess being there, that day, with the rain is what I needed. It's how I felt. There are certain things that you have to do in life that are difficult. It's that "gloomy" aspect. But you have to remember that it brings happiness and a new beginning. The most difficult things in life are the ones that are worth it.
Taking a step back reminds you of why you continue down that path. It may have its unknowns but that's what makes it an adventure. You can't make it alone, most eirons (heroes) in stories had their sidekicks. They need that person that believes in them and makes them believe in themselves, helping them conquer those hurdles.